Sorry that I haven't posted lately....

Just wanted to chime in to say that I am incredibly impressed with the work you did to understand your trigger....and I feel so sad that the muddied boundaries with T caused you pain.

It makes me realize how much I understand T's objection to hugs and any kind of physical touch in therapy.

I am one of those people that have a deep desire for safety in physical affection but am SO scared of it that I punish myself for having those feelings....I had a difficult upbringing, with physically and emotionally abusive parents. This thread makes me wonder how much of my issues with touch are related to the lack of affection I had as a child...or the CSA...or my issues with being overweight....Maybe it's a combination of all. In any case, thanks for sharing this...it's helping me to explore areas that I haven't touched on yet....