yup.

if you think about it..did is brilliant...it shows how smart we are..because we should be dead...but our minds found a way to keep us all alive & thrive...to protect us & keep us going until we are strong enough to handle things, like the truth & understand it.

i don't look on did as a curse...it's a blessing...because without it..who knows?

it shows me that i am strong..& creative, adaptive..& able to handle the worst that anyone can throw at me. i can survive.

sure it gets in the way..& now maybe it doesn't work so good now that i am in a safer calmer place but hate it? no.

honestly my system helped me thrive in my job..i can multi-task thru a crisis like no one else. people used to be amazed how i could handle things. plop me down in the middle of a hostage situation & i am "on" no problem, lost kid..got it...i could handle things 4 or 5 at once...& i loved it...wouldn't even break a sweat.

i would have preferred growing up without the abuse & hell if given a choice but my peeps & i well we are good together. now a few have dropped by the wayside...& that's ok too...we are good now...there's about maybe 3-4..ideally it will stay at about 3 & that's good. i have no desire to morph into 1.

nope..like i said..i am happy with my peeps. .i don't share about my peeps with others in real life..the few times i did it weirded people out..which is a shame. changed the relationship..so i keep things quiet. but i am happy with them..i owe them much.