I switch alot too but my switching is based on triggers not as in who does what and so on. When I get scared about someting I switch into that related "alter" (piece of memory) If I start getting mad I switch into an alter that contains anger and so on. I don't get tired during my switching. To me when the pieces of memorys are replaying Im floating in my mental safe place or sleeping in my mental safe place. I can actually go for weeks without actually physically sleeping just because of my rapid switching. It doesn't seem like I am out of control because I have always been this way. The only time I am bothered by my switching is like the time while I was off floating and I came back and found out that I had thrown a table at my past therapist, or the time I woke up and it was pitch dark and a friend was telling me I just punched her boyfriend. Those type of situations are few an far between for me though because I dont get that angry very often.

But I do know about the being numb because when I am floating I don't feel anything at all. its just me floating. no pain no thoughts just listening to my music and floating.

Silence - I get silence sometimes - not much but sometimes. When a voice is going I just look for the trigger and do something to change the trigger and that voice stops. Sometimes on purpose I know what the trigger is like yesterday in therapy I was in my tunnel area and my therapist and I were talking about something and a voice kept saying shut up. I knew the trigger was probably something to do with what we were talking about. Instead of catering to the voice and stoping the activity that my therapist and I were doing I decided to go float in la la land. I didn't feel mad or angry so I knew that the odds of my throwing a table at her was very small so I just went with the flow of things and floated off to la la land. The next thing I knew was standing and my therapist asking if I was all there. I let her know I was fine a bit foogy but fine and I knew I left for la la land at least one point and I would be fine going home. By the time we walked back to her office building a block away from where we did the therapy activity the fog had lifted enough for me to bike home. and even if it didn't I still would have made it home. My DID switching is trigger related so being that I was on my bike I would not have switched into any "alters" that didn't contain any information about my riding a bike. The way I think about it is that I am in my 40's my DID didn't get me killed when I didn't know what it was called then I am going to be just fine now that I know what it is called the only thing that has changed in relation to my switching before I was diagnosed and after is that I have a foot long worded label to explain what was already happening.

Anyway Im getting off track here so hang in there. it does get better.