Dear T,

Why am I crashing? What is so different? You had a valid reason to cancel our session this week. You told me to call if I needed to. But I didn't. I won't. I am trying to do what you taught me to do. It's not working. Meds are not working. Nothing is working. I am not sleeping and I am worn out. Exhausted. Sometimes I wish that you would just email me out of the blue and say, "Hey, I was thinking about you. Is everything okay? Remember you can call me if you need to."

Oh, I was dreaming that part. It will never happen.

Squiggle