I'm with Sky timeO, you are healing. That you can see the movie in your head of that horrific event, whew, you cooking with butter!!! The feeling memories will come in their own time, just like this memory popped up in it's own time.

I wish you had a live, in-person person or two to talk to about this stuff. But, I'm very glad you are here at PC.

Being little while all hell breaks out, not good for one's health.
Being little and admonished to sit/stay all alone, very familar to me too. Sooo sorry. So glad you made it to here and now. You, kind friend, are a miracle. Good job. )))))timeO (((( ( ( (((