I remember reading that people that believe they are psychic or believe in conspiracies is linked to some sort of disorder (don't remember what it was) If anybody knows what this may be I would love to hear as it has been a bit of a problem.

SO heres the thing, my mind has been so erratic. It's 2am and I have school tomorrow. I am awake as ever and have a million things I want (but don't need) to do. I spent my day watching tonnes of documentaries one after the other barley leaving the room.

I have lost touch with reality, people may think I am insane. (rambling erratic facebook posts, satanic, weird, strong beliefs) But honestly... I don't know who I am, who is this person in the mirror? I don't know at all. I don't know what I want to do with my life, it frequently changes.

I have suicidal thoughts occasionally, and I seem to believe that life has no meaning what-so-ever. There really is no point. I seem to believe that I am being watched over by someone, or that normal people are 'bad' people. I am convinced I can see into peoples souls and see wether they are good people or not. (weird.. right?).

I want to know who I am, what I want. My mind is always annoying me and I want to escape my thoughts and become more in touch with reality. I do have friends, a social life a relatively normal family and life. Although I am surrounded by friends at school I feel so out of place... Like none of this world is mine, like i'm dreaming maybe. SOmetimes I feel like I am stupid, annoying and awkward in social situations.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME... well.. is there something wrong with me? Idk.. I feel like a lot of these things may be linked to something.