The words that have been sent my way, hope and support, I have never been treated this well! Some people and I have not seen eye to eye and at times I run off, then I come back and you all have said the most touching and heart felt things!!!! That day I wrote my story in anger and thought people needed to know what I went through. I know know it was not for the right reasons but it has turned in to something that touches me to my soul. The cleansing tears are falling the ones that I need the most. Away goes so much guilt and shame for pushing my self too soon. I now see that I do have friends here that are more than friends, people who have walked my path and are further along than I. I know I will need to reach out to you all to get down this path and I am scared to look ahead and see what is next. Alot of me wants to not wait but I know I must not. Your words have helped me 100 times more than the hurtful words here have hurt. I will look to you then dear ones. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU, Rachel.