I don't think anyone's awful.

No, one-night stands never felt too good to me either, but for me they were easier to deal with because I was not so afraid of the abandonment risk involved as there was when I was "serious" with someone. I always knew it would be over in the morning.

I did stop doing them, though, because I still found that I could not really help how weird I felt afterward. I realized that I could not just brush off s*x, but like you, I did not think I could ever be loved that way. So I completely cut off, esp. after my recent divorce...

I have a bf now, but we're together "for now". He mentions anything more and I freak out.

B.