You sound pretty scattered, like I was up until I started Lamictal. That's brought me out of the dysphoric hypomania, while Celexa has made the depression better. But I was on Paxil for almost 10 years, which worked great for the anxiety component even if it didn't totally fix the depression. I wish I could've stayed on it, because I tolerated it well and it didn't tip me over into mania. I did gain 30 pounds while I was on it, which pissed me off, but otherwise it was a good drug for me. Wish it hadn't stopped working!