Today has been very bad for me emotionally, It is mothers day not sure if it is the same in usa and the rest of the world, Anyway because of my dads arrest ( I call him "the thing" now) Mum won't have any contact with us even though the police officer in charge has said it is ok for her to do so.

I sent her a card for mothers day and put a message inside saying that "I miss her and I do love her" I thought maybe she will call me and say thank you, but no nothing, It was my daughters birthday last week and she didn't send her a card, It is the first time ever she has done this, Why take it out on the kids? They have done NOTHING WRONG?

I miss her so much it hurts, I used to be close to her before all this abuse stuff came out, Why has she chose The thing over her kids and grandchildren? It don't make sense.

What will happen if and when she dies? I will feel guilty.