I know what it is like to be too busy to know what to do for yourself. I ordinarilly have the skills for self care but sometimes become so overwhelmed that they just arent there. Having not SI'd for a long time myself, it surprises me how easily those urges come back as a solution so i can understand why you resorted to SI again. I find just the memories bring comfort to me. Fortunately, when i find comfort in those memories, it is my cue that I have to slow down and find other coping skills. It is a wake up call that I have pushed myself too hard, that I have to take some time out for me. So like this weekend, I am doing absolutely nothing as I have been going hard for weeks. The dust can wait, the dishes can wait, the vacuuming can wait. So what can you do for you to give yourself a break?