Hello & Welcome, Bchris02!

Wow.

You mention strict, controlling parents who have disowned you. Your story reads like some accounts of young people reared in high-control groups who, as soon as they got out from under the umbrella of the group's influence, could not handle the freedom for which they were never prepared. They crashed and had to rebuild themselves -- their lives and identities. And -- so I read -- many of them are doing just fine after going through transition and transformation.

Please, make yourself at home here!