it is very common to want to get off meds. and it is also common to think that our meds are masking who we really are. but if you are on the right meds, at the right dosage, the quality of life you have will be such that you will feel the benefits of taking your meds are worth any side effects you may be having. you shouldnt be so drugged up that you cant think clearly, or cant get your words out, that is not a quality life - i refused to take any drugs that impacted my cognitive abilities. i need my mind. i need to be able to communicate my thoughts.

i was very antimed, but after 30 years finally came to the realization that i could no longer go unmedicated. it took three years to find the right med...i refused everything that had a side effect that i felt diminished me...i am high functioning, intelligent and work with the public. i need my wits about me. but eventually, to the consternation of pdocs who wanted me to try higher doses of meds i felt didnt work, that i didnt like side effects of, i stood my ground and insisted they try other drugs. we finally found one that worked with side effects that i was ok with and i feel fully functioning on. it just takes time and patience and a pdoc willing to work for you.

good luck.........