Thank you guys : )

Echoes, thanks for reminding me that it was her caring that caused her to say she would be there...you're right. And I agree on the super-sensitive thing also Yeah...I can be super sensitive to what people do, say and how they say it. I like the part about T's caring isn't what we pay for also....that is a good way of understanding it. I am sure it is true. I am sure in reality no doctor can care just because we have walked into their office and it is our hour.....the caring is the human part. I just wish the relationship was easier to understand...it warps my attachment-issued-brain trying to understand it LOL.

Perna, I like what you said about going back to asking why you are in the relationship, and what you called "selfish" mode, although I actually wouldn't call it selfish.
I do that sometimes, too, but when I do it, it really is selfish I've gone into my black-and-white thinking mode on Dr. L a few times and said some really cold things, because in my mind, she doesn't care so has no feelings to hurt
And you're right about T's not being perfect...and if they were, how could we learn to work with a relationship?

Hankster, it sounds like a lot of us are super-sensitive...It makes me feel better that I'm not alone in this

CantExplain, Thanks for reminding me of what I already (sort of) knew. Well, by "already knew," I mean I know it is what my logical brain would tell me if only it worked better But yeah, you are right....I should talk to my T about these things more. I wish it were easier but I will work harder on this. And thanks for telling me my feelings are normal