Oops, didn't mean to send that email! I know it will be read tomorrow morning and I wouldn't send it if it were now, a few hours before t will read my question about her comparison.

I've given this a lot of thought this weekend, and decided that I probably had indeed frustrated my t, and now I have gone and stirred the pot again! I know I don't have to second-guess my t because I pay her to do a job, but I really don't like confrontation of any sort, even if this time it will probably end up being with my own feelings.

With all of the support that all of you have offered and to answer your question, yes I do want to heal, but I'm not sure I'm ready yet to face the past-this is what I think my t wants me to do. She has said that I must confront the past if I want to heal, but she usually lets me set my own pace.

I'll let you know how it turns out-right now I am ready to schedule another appointment tomorrow just to get this all behind me, but with my luck she won't have any time available.

On a side note, I go to the pdoc tomorrow, so maybe she can give me a drug that will calm me down.

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