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Old Mar 18, 2012, 11:04 PM
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Based on my experiences when NOT medicated, I don't recommend pulling the plug entirely.

I was only on an SSRI at the time, but when I came off, I was a wreck. A weepy, *****y, whiny, sniveling, hyperactive, irritable, snippy, hysterical wreck. I didn't know I was bipolar at the time, nor did I even realize how awful I was until one afternoon when I was standing in the shower crying for NO FREAKING REASON. I wasn't depressed, I had everything in the world going for me......and I couldn't shut off the waterworks.

So I went on Wellbutrin, which was a complete disaster for me as I think it made me manic---I was constantly amped up on anger and I went off at the drop of a nickel. The rage went away when I came off of that, but then the depression came back and then the mixed episode that started around Christmas and has continued, although it's been a lot better since I started Lamictal. Now I'm on that, plus Celexa 20 mg. and Ativan 1 mg at night, and things are finally starting to even out.

I asked my family to slap the stupid out of me if I ever talk about coming off meds again......I hate having to take pills to be "normal" but I don't ever want to have another mixed episode again. And I'm terrified that I will if I stop the meds. That's my two cents' worth, anyway.