Sometimes I think too much. When it comes to a certain subject, I am torn between wanting to give up and trying to beat the problem. To "give up" could mean to give up fighting the problem entirely and exclude it from my life, which would kill me inside. It would hurt others, too. I am afraid that if I focus too much on this problem, what could happen in my (or the others') future? Would I learn to cope, or would I really become suicidal? I have built kind of an emotional wall for some parts of this problem because the past of it has been so hard and difficult. Sometimes I feel that the "wall" should built higher and stronger to give me better protection.