For me, it was other women. In grade school, high school, and through the first couple of years of college, if another girl or adult woman showed me any affection, I had a really puppy dog kind of response to it, though not in a sexual way. Total follower, let them push me around and treat me with absolutely no respect. Some time during my sophomore year in college, I decided females were too treacherous to even attempt to interact with, so I stopped. My first T tried to tell me it was just the KIND of women/girls I was hanging around with me, and that I tended to attract people who would take advantage of me because of my childhood, but because I should do differently, I just stopped trying to have friendships with women. I would still FEEL that impulse to follow like a puppy when a woman was kind to me, but I just put it away.
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