I don't think you will find quite what you are looking for. If you do not push yourself, cannot get yourself to talk, no one "outside" you is going to be able to? It is you and your problems and stories, etc., you have to want to share those, no one can "rip" them out of you? They don't know what is there so have nothing to grab hold of, in the first place, and your defenses are yours and obviously really good so they can't get through them, it's like asking someone outside your front door to unlock the deadbolt but they have no key or leverage of any kind?