this topic is interesting....

and I think many of you show very good insight

for me, even though my dad was not involved-- the neglect went too far and resulted in severe abuse by others due to father's disconnect from me as a child. and the mother was a lit stick of dynamite where the wick would sporadically go out and then re-ignite to explode(in other words never know when, why or if it will explode)...

so I guess instead of yearning for what I never had-- I more fear what's the consequence of being near others.....
I so fear that men want to take "something" from me-- and that women are extremely volatile.

I gave what ever I needed to myself from a VERY young age..... maybe I only trust self to have such a HUGE role....

don't know if I will ever be so trusting as all of you are.... I do think it's great that you can be as such.

I don't "follow anyone home" and try to keep a safe distance(i rarely email the T. I see- the last time was- once- last summer, and I havent called for 2 years-- that was a traumatic emergency)...... though, this T. I see, is the kindest person I've ever known and as scary as it is-- I do have hopes, occasionally, that she is not like what I've known from so many people in my life.

....fins