My t responded to my email bright and early, and I ended up at therapy today. I couldn't process the thought of being compared to my father. She cleared up the fact that I am bipolar and I have to watch for behaviors that bipolar people have (like my father) such as abusing alcohol when hypomanic/manic. this doesn't mean that I will act in in the same way as him. (fortunately I didn't get his "monster" gene)
We then went into the csa and ptsd-I have a long way to go in order to heal there, as I found out today. I am glad I got all of my feelings out, and was able to accomplish some positives. When I am ready, I should go back to journaling about the abuse. I find this so hard because when memories surface I have such a rough time processing. The first time a new memory surfaced, I had no idea this could happen and was in tears for days. Does anyone have any advice for gentle processing?

Also, the pdoc appointment went well. I am going off abilify and on lamictal, this should be a better long-term stabilizer according the pdoc. Also, it doesn't promote weight gain, yeah, I get depressed when going near a scale these days.

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