I just know what she's gonna say... 'Take the meds I gave you'. But I don't always like just taking things. I always hope it will make me happy, but never does.

I feel good, but like I'm on acid or something. Nothing seems real, I'm aware I'm at work but it feels like prison. I forget what I'm doing here. Haha oh yeah.. Money. Gah.

Well, I'll let it play out and see how it is tonight when I get off, but pretty sure it's not gonna go away. This is how I typically feel, just never realized or cared that it wasn't within the confines of 'normalcy'.

Another thing I always thought was because I used to always be on drugs that it was something from that (and I don't mean legal drugs).

Well perhaps that is what the drug is for. To bring me back to reality.. And as much as I hate reality, it does me no good to separate myself even further from people or life I guess.