Johnf22881-can't say what it is since I am not a dr. But I can tell you that when people get clean, they feel more (cause they are not covering up) and sometimes it seems like things are worse (again, not covering up with drugs/alcohol) It might be a good idea for you to get that extra help and support right now (tx) good for you for considering. I'm glad your reaching out via pc. Hang in there-keep reaching out and keep in touch-you've been through the worst.......it can get better