Number 1 is first; then number 6. Number 5 used to be bad, but in the past two years with my current T I think this part has been "cured". Number 1 causes me the most problem because I can't stand to be alone and then my friends, my husband, my lovers, my T all get annoyed with me because they give and give me their time and it's never enough so they get frustrated with me, which sets off the cycle of fear of abandonment again--(they are frustrated=they hate me and will give up on me). And what is wrong with me that I can't be by myself anyway? I hate that.

Number 6, affective instability, often upsets my friends and partners, too. It bothers my T; I might call her in intense pain and distress and then two days later send her a quick email to say I'm fine now. She says she refuses to be dragged up and down with me so now she ignores my affect much of the time, which is kind of scary. My husband hates it. One moment I will be content to sit and grade so he thinks it is safe to go try to do something by himself, but when he comes back "to check on me" in an hour or two I could be suicidal or crying hysterically or hurting myself in some way. He then wonders "what happened?" and often feels resentful that he can't walk off and do his own thing without having to worry about the consequences of leaving me alone two rooms away. And why should a grown woman have to have her husband "come check on her"? It makes me feel stupid, but I do need him to come check on me; anything could happen in my emotional mind or sometimes physical problems trigger emotional breakdowns.