I've fought (uni)polar depression for many, many years. Been on meds for over 20. Meds seem to help cap some of my anger and help me sleep. They seem to work for several months, but then they stop working & I crash again. That's where I am now. 12 years ago, I had meds & DBT therapy for four years which really helped me, but I am so broke now & I cannot afford therapy anymore.

I'm so hopeless. I'm on disability, can't pay my bills, and cannot work. I have very, very, very little energy. Some days I can't get out of bed.

My psychiatrist barely listened to me so I stopped my appointments. I stopped working as of last week, but I could only manage very part-time work anyway with the extreme fatigue and exhaustion.

I'm having a very rough time. I don't see any future for myself. How am I supposed to support myself if I don't even have the energy to work???? I don't even have my health. If you don't have your health, you don't have anything. Friends and family don't understand.....

I'm so hopeless. This is no way to live.