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Originally Posted by MellBrown1
Interesting, honestly, yes to both.
A sociopath I know, is kind looking, "caring" and often changes her personality so that those she is with will like her. Lying was everything, ever little thing was a cold pure lie. She would take drugs just because everyone else was. She would tell you all the things you wanted to hear but really weren't the best. She would go behind your back and hate on everybody. Sometimes when drunk she would scare me a bit, it threw me off, like I could see the evilness coming out. She was horrible to her partners, she never even liked them.
She even admitted she tries really hard, and nobody knows who she really is.. neither does she.
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well, again, I don't know if I am one of those, I just think I have traits and I think it runs in the family (on my dads side).
I try to have fun with it, but it does seriously suck when you can't feel close to anyone, and ultimately just end up hanging by yourself most of the time.
One thing, after doing reading about it, I never really noticed until I'd read about it, is when someone tells me that someone in their family died, I find myself thinking "That's good, they aren't in pain anymore" or whatever, and it's my immediate thought. Not a thought to them for missing a loved one, I immediately think about the positive aspect.. or the A-hole aspect, which is what it usually comes down to. I just have no sympathy or empathy (genuinely) for people. I can try to fake it, but I just don't.
I am intrigued by it, because I wonder if that's why I've always been a loner, even though I like people alot, I just.. can't feel any connection with anyone. Not unless it's superficial like we both play music, but then once the music talk is over, there is nothing. It's just like.. "ok, well.. maybe we'll see each other again.." or "We should jam sometime".
Then, say I show up to "jam" with people (assuming they actually let me), and I just kinda sit there and say nothing. I have nothing to say except stupid things that are retarded. Make stupid jokes. ugh. frustrating sometimes.