wooo, thanks for this; makes terminating with T1 look a lot less unreasonable. I really needed to hear this.

ClementineK - it will take courage, but try to stay open and keep letting yr T know how you react to her. Rage, if that's what you feel. Even if you rage, it's not her you are angry with; that sounds strange maybe, but in time I think you will begin to realize it, and there's a lot of learning in it.

PS I am so very sorry she didn't come to hosp to see you. that made me cry.