((((((RainbowRoad)))))))),

I see you're a new member of PC. Welcome to PC. I am very sorry that you experienced abuse from your father Rainbow it really pains me to hear that, after all you were just a child and deserved to be loved and protected. I think that it was very brave of you to finally find the courage to talk about it. I agree with peridot28 about the healing process and yes, it does slowly improve with good therapy and validation.

The one thing that stuck out to me is that at least your father did appologize and recognize that what he did was wrong. I know that it didn't take it away for you, but one thing I have read alot here is the wish that at least the abuser recognize and admit they abused. IDK, maybe in time you will be able to talk to others that do wish for that to happen and give them some insight.

(((((Hugs))))))
Open Eyes