Thanks for the feedback.

I don't know. T knows that I'm having trouble with feelings of attachment...and I am really struggling with it. Having the feelings and wanting them to go away. Pushing them away.

Sure, it may be a useful tool in therapy....but it's painful and embarrassing. Real feelings in a "made up" circumstance. The painful truth about the client/therapy relationship. And it sucks.

T is a professional, helping to create a safe environment for me. But that safe environment is a pretend land purely for discovery and experimental purposes.

I imagine him thinking, "I need to create an environment where MUE feels cared for and safe, so that we can work on X, Y, Z....Thank goodness I'm getting paid for this fairytale."

BLECH.

I know I'm rambling and am probably making no sense whatsoever....but it's where I am at the moment.

I feel like I was better off when I was unaware....