I changed my forum name once I found out that this forum is crawled. I was appalled that it is crawled. I wrote to the moderators with indignation and they cited the sign-up language that I missed (overlooked). Then I changed my forum name. But now I am fine - that is what anonymity is for. As for the record, my first psychiatrist, who missed the impending suicide attempt, primarily noted how I looked in his notes. The last record has exclamation marks after "extremely well dressed!!!" It would be a very compelling online account to juxtapose his shallow notes with the unraveling reality. And it would not expose me - he probably writes this way about other people. It is not completely out of place to note appearance (professional or neat vs disheveled and too hot for the season would be good examples) but to be so obsessed with it is abnormal. This is by the way the psychiatrist who went delusional when he learned about my suicide attempt. He called my then husband frantically and told him that I had run away from the hospital. I was comatose. So the psychiatrist was in serious need of mental help himself. I kick myself for sticking with him. He was fresh into private practice after being the head of a big psychiatry department at a clinical foundation; I thought that was a good recommendation.

Back to the records on how I looked - he would not give them to me, only to another p-doc. My neuropsychologist let me take a peek, this is how I know the content of his notes. So while I would not see a privacy peril in posting all those incessant notes about looks, I simply do not have the material.