It's my first year at university, which means me living 200 miles away from my home. My family is great and I've lived in my home town my entire life, and I'm homesick most of the time. Before I just kept myself busy with university work, my part time job and going out, but last month my grandfather died.

I returned to university last week, but since then I've not been motivated to do anything. I sleep for hours and hours and barely have the energy to leave the house. I'm irritable and cry none stop. I've always had self esteem issues and coping with emotions, but I felt like I was making progress. Now I feel like I'm worse than ever.

The only person who I trust enough to talk to is my mum, but when we're apart I know she worries about me and I don't want to give her any extra stress. I'm not the type of person who talks about their feelings, I get really embarrassed and find it hard to articulate how I feel, other than overwhelmed.

When my university deadlines come I can't be this under motivated or I won't be able to continue next year, and my grandfather wouldn't want me to give up on my university dream because i can't cope.