I cannot bear to look at myself in the mirror and especially not in photos. I truly believe I look absolutely horrible. There are only a few stores that I frequent with comfort. I hardly ever feel comfortable in public or in new places. I never feel "good enough".

The thought of meeting new people is sooo difficult. Dating is so terrifying I cannot consider it. I have a panic just thinking about it.

Every day when I get ready for work (or even on the weekends when I am able to dress more casually), I have in my mind, "this is the best it's gonna get for today. nothing I can do about it".

So, low to virtual no self-esteem...(check)