(((((Music Rules Me)))))

I agree with Leed. I am so sorry that you were a victim. But you do not deserve to be that way your whole life Music. You CAN learn to work this out and find ways to get past it and not allow it to disturb the rest of your life.

This guy that is a good friend and now likes you, do you think that you could like him more back aside from struggling with your past? I ask this because after all if this guy is a GOOD friend, it may be someone that can be understanding and helpful, someone you can trust after you get therapy (which you definitely need) to help you address your struggle with being a victim.

This desire for hybernation/isolation, well that is a symptom of PTSD and you truely need help with that, and you CAN get past this. Also, the depression is also a symptom of PTSD and you need to address this, I have been struggling myself and getting better with therapy, so I know that you too can find your way past this.

Please don't hide from A LIFE YOU SO DESERVE because you experienced something so troubling. I hear you, me too, but I want my life back.

(((((Gentle supportive hugs for you))))))
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