I agree with Leed, I think that you need time to grieve.

But also I just want you to know that it is very common for first year college students to get home sick.

When I went to my daughters college orientation, for parents only, the one thing they made clear to all parents is that often student DO get homesick and to not let them come home as they do overcome this.

So, just to let you know this IS NORMAL. But in your case, I think you were doing a great job, just that the loss of your grandfather made it much more difficult.

Do not be hard on yourself, you are grieving and adjusting.

((((Hugs))))
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