I suppose if I'm honest, I'm asking this out of a mix of

• bewilderment
• interest
• jealousy
• longing
• fear
• and ... I'm sure more

Often I see people mention their husbands (or wives); their partners; their children; their friends etc.

They are relationships that for the most part are completely unknown at a personal level for me.

Here we are, all or most of us, either in therapy or having been in therapy

and yet ... am I the only one missing these relationships; or is such a total disaster at relationships

I long for connection ... I run from connection

The therapy relationship is one thing (and a confusing one at that, and one I wonder if it's hurting more than helping?) but I want more.

maybe?????????????????????????