Yesterday I started a partial day hospitalization program at the behavioral health center. (For those who don't know, it's like being at a psych ward for 5 hours a day, 5 days a week, 2 weeks). We have groups and then a leisurely or recreational activity in the afternoon. Well yesterday, there were 4 other patients there and I brought up how it's hard that I don't have any friends to hang out with in person, other than my boyfriend. Then they started giving suggestions on how I can go out and make friends. Well their suggestions were stupid. Like go read to children at a school and volunteer at a nursing home. How would any of that get me friends?? Then they said I was just shooting down all their suggestions as if I was making excuses for not having friends. But the suggestions were ridiculous, and nothing that I would do, or think would help! So I got frustrated and upset, but I let it slide and moved on....

Well today, I was the only patient there because the others are only doing it 3x a week but my insurance only covers the 5x a week program. There are 2 staff ladies who did groups with me (or rather 1-on-1's cause I was the only one there!) and I didn't really mind that much being the only one there but it was still kinda awkward.

But then they brought up the me having no friends thing again. They gave more stupid suggestions and then I told them I didn't want to talk about it anymore, and that I didn't like people telling me what I should be doing esp. about the friends thing because if I could make friends I'd have them right now. Then one of the ladies said to me "Is this making you mad?" and I nodded my head yes... then she said "Well now we know what to say to make Christie mad!" Then the other lady brought up volunteering at the humane society and going to the dog park... which were things I brought up yesterday and said I was considering going back to the humane society and already go to the dog park and socialize some there. Well she said SHE brought both things up and that I shot them down!, then denied it when I said I was the one who brought them up and that I was already going to the dog park!!! She said that I had given her a "look" yesterday. THen the other lady said "So what is your "look" going to be today?" I gave her a blank stare... ANd then later that day the rec. lady came over and asked if I was ready to go to the gym to play some basketball and one of the other ladies said "Don't tell her what to do, she hates that!" :O

I don't want to go back. I've decided to give it another day, and try to stand up for myself if it continues. They just wouldn't stop teasing me like that though. They may thought it was humorous but I don't think it was very professional, and it made me upset, and even when I said I was getting upset they continued. It's like they were ganging up on me. I hate that, I hate being teased.