Are you really apathetic or do you miss the mood swings and wild range of emotion?

If you're really apathetic, insist on something else especially if you're just trying the same class of meds over and over like say, you're almost always on an SSRI.

If you're not really apathetic and you don't know how to accept and recognize "normal moods and emotions" go listen to a psychologist for awhile. He'll either teach you something or have you resolve never to go back and just figure it out yourself.