Ok my stomach hurts, I'm stressed and depressed. I'm 5 weeks pregnant and my bf and I got into a huge fight which he blamed on me but I didn't start the fight. I asked him a simple question which led to more questions and he got mad.

He treats his daughter generally good but she's not mine and there were a couple cases where I don't want that for our baby. He has been very vague about my pregnancy and everything I do isn't good enough for him. It's like either or, he could always do it himself so how am I needed. I feel like I'm just his sex toy, otherise, his time with me is minimal and he blames it on work. One time he poured a pot of cold water on his daughter to calm her down because she threw a fit. Another time he stole from a Wal-Mart and was talking about it in front of his daughter and she said "oooh daddy you stole" and SHE got in trouble. Another time he was pouring hydrogen peroxide on her open wound and she was crying real loud and he told her to calm down it doesn't hurt then started laughing. She's only 6 years old. Neither of these things I agree with and I don't want to happen to our baby. I just want to go back home because I live in the midwest and have not a lot of friends here and no family, all my family is back east. I just feel sad and not good enough and he's bringing my confidence way down because he hates to be rong even though he's contradicted himself a lot. He gave me hell for not wanting only his last name on the baby but both our last names on the baby because we're not married yet and even threatend he wouldn't marry me because I was "acting that way". He's a good guy and a good dad but there are just some things I can't stand about him. It's his bed, his fridge, his computer (which I'm using now because he didn't even get mine fixed.)

I just feel stressed and I know back east I'll have the legal right as the mom to choose my baby's first, last and middle names and my family is very supportive there. But I want to stay here because I like the midwest and I want the dad to be in my baby's life. I just feel like staying here, I'm unappreciated outside of sex and spending time with his daughter. It's like as if that's all I'm ever good for because apparently I don't clean enough or cook enough.

I'm thinking of getting on depression meds, at least I'll be numb to everything, including him. He's got his life together so it doesn't seem to matter what I do because he could always do it better and by himself. I don't know what to do. Twice before I almost went back east but didn't. I hate the way my life is going and I just want to do what's best for me and baby. :'( If I wasn't pregnant, I'd have a bottle of vodka in my left hand right now I swear.