I have some good friends, though I struggle in a lot of social situations especially when my depression is high. Other than 3 long time friends (1 from middle school, one from high school, and 1 from college), all of my good friends I've met through church. I have acquaintances I can chat with in class or at work, but my real friends are from church. Even though I'm still in the process of figuring out my faith and how church/religion fits into that, I know for sure that many of the people I find there are kind, caring, and genuine. And those are the people I want to surround myself with.

Beyond several good friends, I am a single female in my mid-twenties who is terrified of being alone forever. Not the best relationship with my mom, to say the least, though I'm starting to open up to my dad. I have a couple older guy cousins who are like brothers to me, though they're engaged/married so I feel kinda left in the dust.

More than anything, I want my own family. A good husband who loves me and kids. And I'm so scared I'll never have that. I'd rather die than grow old alone. Seriously.