I've always struggled with relationships. I had a very isolated background both at home and school and was bullied all through secondary school. I had very few friends. Things got a bit better when I went to uni but then I married a verbally and emotionally abusive bloke and had my son, who is learning disabled. I pretty much lived inside my head until I reached adulthood when I became obsessed with anyone female and motherly who so much as smiled at me. These days I have two good friends, one of each sex, and feel reasonably comfortable with them on a one to one basis. I'm not good in groups as I suffer from social anxiety. I am in a long distance relationship with a new boyfriend now too for the first time since my marriage ended in 2006. I'm still very isolated, not helped by circumstance, but due to my experiences in therapy and my spiritual faith, as well as the friends I do have, my relationships are better than they were. I have a better sense of self now and don't feel completely worthless.