What I wrote in this post is just another thing he does to put on top of all the others that he do.

No, the flowers doesn't take away the pain, doesn't blind me. I know when the flowers will die, also will come the other blow. A circle.

I have one reason to stay with him and one only.

I'm trying to understand his behavior. Trying to see if it's my fault. Trying to change things so maybe he will stop doing this. Just trying and I do try and try.

Thank you!