Oh yes. Its something else. Comes out of no where and before I even realize what I have done, I have done damage. This is my savings just completely dwindling down. I no longer have a successful career where I can stack cash up when Im not blowing it. I have disabilty, No where near what I made working.
I have no one I can turn complete control of my money over to. My husband and I just got back together six months ago and I dont want to do anything major like that. My family, they are all bipolar and I know that in general that would never betray me that way but this disease halts all sense of any morals or respect.
I dont have credit cards anymore. I have gotten myself in so deep with them I cant dig myself out without going bankrupt. The years and years of this has just added up to more than I can handle. I will spend the rest of my life digging myself out by giving up all my money and paying high interst credits off or I can file bankruptsy and try to not do this to myself again. I dont know what to do.