I love your post about havving command.....we all need to have command and control over our treatment. You are inspiring and give me the courage to take charge and not let myself be led around by the Dr. If the side affect of a medical is not something I can tolerate, I will stop taking it (of course, in a safe way) there are others that I take that have been effective. Really tired of being used as a chemical guinea pig....we're humans! Alternatives may not work as quickly....but my self-esteem is worth so much more to me.