I was recently changed from Lithium, to Topamax. Lithium left me with a rash on my face, and lots of weight gain. So my first week on Topamax, it was OK, but my blood pressure was running 110, on the bottom number. Then, all I could think about was suicide, for 3 days, I dealt with this. Now, I have stopped taking the Topamax, and I feel OK.I'm seriously thinking of going med free. Why not? This med change stuff is awful, just 3 days ago I was making suicide plans, now, I'm fine. I'm totally amazed at the difference in me. I know that I can become extremely depressed on my own, but why not take the chance without the meds?