Thanks to all to all who were kind enough to post words of encouragement. I slipped again yesterday and my wife called me out on it. That I had coming but when she gets angry and yells and screams at me it just makes me want to sink back into oblivion.

I think I took too much valium to compensate and also had a couple of drinks and started feeling very out of things and told her but she didn't seem to care.

Later in bed, I reached out for her just to hold her hand and she pulled away from me. She's been pulling away for a long time and that just makes it harder to stay on the road to recovery. She seems to care more about being right than about me.

Just hurting again but I guess after all this time I should be used to it.

Thanks to all you kind folks for listening (reading?) my ramblings.

Texas Man