I've suffered with depression for 21 years.This last year I was depression free.My son who has lived with my mom for most of his life has moved home with me.He'll be 13.He is always in trouble and I know he needs to ajust,the last couple of weeks I feel like I'm a terrible mother,I find myself asking where I went wrong.He is now in counseling also.My depression keeps getting worse.I don't want his life to go like mine has.He acts just like I did growing up there is a fear that he will have BPD like myself.It seems like everyday he's done something else to get in trouble.I know he thinks that I don't love him and I express it to him that I do.I just feel like the depression is slipping back in and it's not something I want back in my life,and it feels like it has control over me again.I don't want his life to be unhappy because mine is messed up.Sorry for rambling on,I guess I just needed to get it out of my mind. <font color="purple"> </font>