I'm not sure what to do. I've been dealing with constant depression and anxiety for over a year now. A lot of it is related to a relationship I am in and some of it has to do with family and school. I've never been in a relationship before so I feel like I don't know what I'm doing and that makes me anxious. There are problems at home and my grades keep getting worse in school.

I'm now at the point where I've lost all interest in my school plans. Originally I wanted to get a PhD, but now I'm very doubtful I'll get into graduate school. I'm not really that interested in graduate school anymore either. I find that I don't have much interest in anything anymore. Nothing excites me. I get through the day by doing homework, but it is increasingly hard for me to concentrate. Sometimes I skip classes because I cannot sit still for more than 20 minutes at a time. I've been seeing a therapist for almost a year, but I'm not sure if it is making a difference. I don't feel comfortable talking to anyone about my problems anymore. In my relationship there are some things that are bothering me. Whenever I get the guts to say what is on my mind I feel as though he doesn't want to talk about it and changes the subject. I have too many problems and nothing is being solved. I don't have any interest in achieving anything anymore.

I've been gaining weight too, which sucks. I usually gain weight during this time of year, but I think my birth control is making it worse this time. I exercise, but I hate it and don't enjoy it at all. I feel like I'm being punished when I exercise. Nothing seems to make me happy anymore. I don't even like watching tv and every song I hear makes me cry. My days are busy and I have a lot to do, but nothing makes me happy anymore. I have an appointment with my therapist in two days, but I'm not sure what to tell her.