Topomax was the first med I ever took for bipolar. The first couple of weeks I felt like I was drunk or high, and ran around with so much energy to burn. I loved it. I remember one particular day when I went to the bank, I felt like I was moving in spurts of fast motion while the rest of the world moved slowly. It was actually cool.

After a couple of weeks, I started making plans for suicide, eventhough I didn't feel depressed or sad. Chances are I was mixed. (Three years later, my pdoc who I trust after going through several, has said that I rapid cycle with mixed episodes.)

I ended up in the hospital for my own safety.

Topomax was not the med for me.