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Originally Posted by pbutton
I think my T is very easy to talk to & I know I can tell him anything and I will be safe. That said, I can talk about my voluntary sex life no problem. Get into anything involuntary and I lose my ability to form words. I'm not exaggerating at all. I think part of it is that I had experiences that I didn't understand at the time & my mind is still confused as an adult.
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I have a similar situation. I trust my T with my life and I know he'll keep me safe, no matter what I say to him. But if I try to talk about the details of my CSA, I open and close my mouth like a fish and no words come out. Even knowing intellectually that I was not responsible and nothing I did caused it nor could I have prevented it, there's still so much shame associated with it that I can't physically form the words.
I've written about it a few times and I read it to myself, but I can't read it out loud. My T thinks it would be best if I can get to the point of sharing the details with him verbally, so has not read what I've written.