BNLsMOM, thanks for that. Sounds pretty similar. I almost believe there is no med for me! Today is a good day, and, I'll take it. I sometimes think, I'm just not meant to be around for long. I'm scared, and confused, been at this for a while. Still trying to except who I am, and, that my life is different then others. Just came out of the hospital 6 months ago, don't really want to go back. I think we all just need a cabin on the beach, with lots of sunshine! Thanks